Friday was one of those days when I would have been better off staying in bed! I've been trying to stay off the computer and break my 'addiction' and I was very good on Thursday and didn't even switch it on. First thing Friday morning however I thought I'd check quickly before going to life drawing and I wish I hadn't. Someone had taken exception to me pointing out that putting on weight can lead to a lack of inspiration (for drawing) and I/we should continue off list. My blood immediately started boiling and as a result I missed my bus! As I reached the garden gate the thought of turning around and giving up on the day crossed my mind and I tried to fight off thoughts from previous experience of when one thing goes badly, a lot of others things do too. Then the bus flew by. Exactly on time. The driver must have been a non-smoker and didn't need his end of route ciggie.
Life drawing started fine but by the end of it the heat from the fan heater had not only got me but the others too. I felt quite sick - and not just from looking at the body piercing on her right breast! Not only that but the model couldn't keep still and her position kept changing so I just stuck with the one drawing adding the different body parts together! I suggested we get more male models as they don't need the fan heater on!
I wondered whether the e-mail might have had a male-female element to it too as the writer was male. Men are less likely to tie their body weight to their self esteem. For instance, if a woman feels her clothes are tight, she might worry, but a man might blame the tumble drier!
Weight has been on my mind these last few weeks. It might seem from this post like I'm feeling miserable but actually I'm feeling great! I've taken time out from the blog to concentrate on painting the house and getting odd jobs done that somehow fell by the wayside last year. I've also got to the weight I've been aiming for (no sympathy or applause please, we're only talking pounds here as I'm very short!) and have been treating myself to some new clothes - something I very rarely enjoy doing.
My weight was constant at just over eight stone from the time I left school (and those stodgy puddings) to the day (I'm pretty sure) I took up quilting in 1999. I was the same weight after having two babies. But at the quilt class there was a tea percolator in the corridor and for the first time in years I started drinking tea. (I used to only drink water). Fast forward to September 2003, sitting around at home in Kuwait having lost my motivation to even go out the door. Mark asked me what was worrying me and I realised it was because I was feeling so fat, I was at my heaviest weight and I was eating no more than usual.
That's when I decided something drastic needed to be done and I went on the Atkins Diet. The weight disappeared with incredible ease! This leads me to where this meandering post is going. I don't eat wheat, drink coffee or alcohol anyway, and I don't smoke so the diet suited me. But as soon as I drank tea, the weight started to go up. When I try to lose weight and drink tea, I can't. So I hunt around on the Internet for any evidence of this having a scientific basis - nothing. Last week, watching a programme on weather changes and the effect it had on early man I was struck but a statement that man, as hunter gatherer, used to live on a diet of meat. When the migrating animals disappeared and people had to plant crops and live off farmed crops their life expectancy dropped dramatically.
I have very little time for much of what scientists say. I disregard their latest theories and statements and look instead at the 'facts' they later tweak or discover to be wrong. It gives a better clue to how much these trusted people really know. To cut to the chase, I find it absolutely incredible that even today we don't know what foods are suitable to put in our bodies! Every other creature on earth has a chosen habitat and specific diet, but not us. Surely that, if nothing else, should be known by now with absolute certainty?
Today, with all the accumulated knowledge of generations before us we can't decide whether oily fish is good or bad for us and more importantly we can't explain why record number of people have cancers, asthma, heart disease, allergies etc., etc., etc. The one thing everyone does seem to agree on is tea is good for you. Well, I'm not so sure. You heard it here first!